Sadness swallows me like a kid with an ice cream cone on a hot summer day
Darkness surrounds me like a new moon
Life can be hard when the person who introduced you to life isn’t alive anymore
Couch surfing has become a comfort, sometimes feeling like I can’t move
Numbness runs through my body, like blood runs through my veins
Never knew this pain could exist, starting to feel like every decision is a risk
Thoughts of better days dance through my head, they compete with old ways
The old ways were the many days you were here
Replaying those memories over and over like a favorite childhood movie
Rewind, fast forward, rewind, rewind, pause, STOP!
If only it were that simple to stop and stay instead of pressing play
The days are long, the years are short
Time is ticking never knowing when our time will stop
Chasing the time trying to do so much to beat the clock
Many days stuck in this funk, other days feeling more spontaneous and full of spunk
Thinking of you even when I am not aware
But a heart that has never hurt is a heart that never cared.
